I was born in 1970, and almost 40 years later I can vividly recall getting my 1st Atari game system, my 1st bike, even though I did not know how to ride it yet. I think about days in elementary school waiting for my mom to pick me up after school. I think about my junior high days and how I really liked industrial arts classes where I took woodworking, and ceramics. I think about my days in high school were it seemed to be all about my friends, and getting my 1st car, a ’79 Firebird. I think about my senior year, 1989 and how I barely graduated.
Just 2 short years later my daughter was born. I was only 21 at the time, and I wondered what kind of father I could be to her at such a young age. Her mother and I were never married and things did not work out between us. But I remember my daughter falling asleep on my shoulder, and her love of Barney videos
In 1995, I got married to a beautiful, Christian women with a son. We formed a blended family, but never had children together. I think about the days of our children growing up, elementary, junior high, and high school. I think about our big tree and how we would we would each choose an ornament every year. The Come Eat before You Trick or Treat events we used to have. Boyfriends and girlfriends, and many times just friends. I think about Bunuelos and hot chocolate on New Years Eve. I think about the good times, and the bad, the smiles, the laughter, and the tears.
So I sit here today and I wonder about the time, and where it went? I feel I have lost something in my life, something that I will never get back in more ways than one. I miss the people in my life that are not here anymore, and I miss the one’s that are here but are not there like they used to be. I can only pray for God’s grace on my life and try to use whatever time I have left on this earth to be the most loving, selfless person I can be.
I know that no matter what has happened or what will happen the most important in life is to know God. Praise Him that I know Him,and know this life is temporary compared to the eternity with our Heavenly Father. So love much, waste little, and seek God while He may be found. Love God with all your heart, mind, and spirit, and love your neighbor as yourself.