It has been some time since I wrote about about anything related to my attempt to lose weight, exercise and get in shape. But after about 3 months into a new journey I felt it was time to share this aspect of my life. The Lord has been working in life in many ways, and this is one area I know He has graciously moved in.
I have a problem that many can relate to, “I have a weight problem.” In fact, my mother had a weight problem all of her life and was morbidly obese when she died in her 50’s. As I child I was the fat kid that got picked last and wore Husky jeans. All of my life I have made attempts to eat better & exercise only to fail and revert back into old habits that held me back. I am a short person, about 5′ 5″, so my ideal weight is about 150-160 pounds, and a 32 pant size. At some point several years ago I peaked at 225 pounds and a size 40 pant size. By all aspects I have a weight problem.
Last year I decided that 2011 would be the year to finally get do it! To eat right, exercise, and get physically fit. I had started the year before, but was not consistent or even close. When January came I hit the gym the 1st week only to find myself struggling again with working out and nutrition. As my motivation started to go down I began to realize that something different had to happen.
Over the next month I began to realize a few things. I stood in the bathroom one day, and I began to look at my torso. I looked at how fat I was, and I began to sense disappointment with myself. I began to look at the rest of my body, my fingers & arm, then I looked at my feet, ankles, calves, and saw how thin they were. These were not the extremities of a fat person, but a thin person. At that point it hit me! This was not the person I was meant to be. I was not meant to be fat & overwight. This made a huge difference in my attitude about what trying to accomplish. The next thing I came to realize was that until my eating was under controls I was wasting time at the working out.
At this point someone might say “well that is good for you, but I can’t get the same revelation by looking at my hands and feet.” You may may even be discouraged and say “I guess that I was meant to be fat!” Stay with me please!
Here was my greatest revelation! The reality is no one was meant to be fat, period! We don’t have a “weight” problem, we have a sin problem. Our flesh has lustful desire for food, for laziness, for self. Our desire is to be fit and thin, but sin is always in the way. Paul spoke this about principle in Romans.
- 14 For we know that the Law is spiritual, but I am of flesh, sold into bondage to sin. 15 For what I am doing, I do not understand ; for I am not practicing what I would like to do, but I am doing the very thing I hate…..20 But if I am doing the very thing I do not want, I am no longer the one doing it, but sin which dwells in me. 21 I find then the principle that evil is present in me, the one who wants to do good. 22 For I joyfully concur with the law of God in the inner man, 23 but I see a different law in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin which is in my members. (Romans 7: 14-15, 20-23)
The next thing I came to realize was that if I wanted to achieve my goals of losing weight, and getting fit was I that there had to be a bigger cause then myself. It needed to more than just pride in my appearance or hopes of attracting women. It needed to be a desire to bring glory to God, and be a good steward of the body He gave me. Just as importantly, I came to the conclusion that I would never be able to it on my own.
- Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and that you are not your own ? 20 For you have been bought with a price : therefore glorify God in your body. (1 Corinthians 6:19-20)
- Whatever you do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks through Him to God the Father. (Colossians 3:17)
- Whether, then, you eat or drink or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God. (1 Corinthians 10:31)
I broke and cried out to Jesus, and asked Him to help me overcome my sinful desires, and to become the man that He intended me to be for His glory. The great news is that since then I have made dramatic improvements in all of my goals, and I cannot take any credit for any part of it. I can only give thanks to God for His hand in my life.
- 14 “Because he has loved Me, therefore I will deliver him; I will set him securely on high, because he has known My name. 15 “He will call upon Me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble ; I will rescue him and honor him. 16 “With a long life I will satisfy him And let him see My salvation.” (Psalm 91:14-16)
- I can do all things through Him who strengthens me. (Philipians 4:13)
Here is the reality for all of mankind. You may not have a weight problem, but somewhere in your life there is a struggle, a need, desire, want that never gets fixed or filled. We don’t have a weight, money, car, marriage, drug, fill in the blank problem. We have a sin problem. Sin has separated humanity from a Holy God, and our nature contradicts the life that God created us for. Scripture continually reveals to us this fact. We all think we have a physical issue or need that needs to be met, but the reality is that we always have a spiritual need that is greater. And Jesus is trying to get our eyes off of our physical need, and see our spiritual need…to see Him! That He is so much greater, and majestic. That we are fallen, and are all in desperate need of a Savior!
This my prayer for everyone. That you would understand that the struggles and frustrations of this world are there to point you to a God that loves you enough to die for you. That the way you are in the flesh is not how God indented you to be when He created you. That you are a sinful & fallen person, and that you see Jesus as your only hope. First for salvation, and then for sanctification. That you realize God created you for His pleasure, and glory. And that only through a daily relationship with Jesus Christ will you truly find everlasting peace, and joy.
I will continue to post as I go along my journey in hopes that I will encourage someone else. At end of the day this is not about self improvement, a better body or building our kingdoms on Earth. Our bodies, and this world will pass away, but we have an eternal future. Where is your treasure going to be?