Dear Heavenly Father,
It’s 1:00 am and I could not sleep so I decided to write you a letter. I am sure that you know already what I am about to say, but I figured that I would do this anyway. I wanted to say thank you for your Son Jesus. I think about how much you must love Him, and at the same time how much You must love us. Sometimes it is hard to understand why You love me, but I know and believe it to be true. I choose to believe because You say it in your Word.
I must admit that it has been tough for me this year, and at times I feel guilty to think about this when I know that there are others who have endured far worse than anything I have dealt with so far. I don’t normally say this but for once I truly look forward to the New Year, and closure to 2011.
Still, I am amazed at how You are working in my life. That You would use someone so undeserving and broken to accomplish Your will astonishes me. I think about how You took me from were I was, dead in my sins, to a place in Your family. That You have given me life, sonship, and an eternal place in Your kingdom.
I thank you for the family I have left, and the brothers & sisters in Christ that You have provided to me, particular at North Village Church. Having them in my life has made these last couple of years easier to get through. I only pray that I can give, bless and pour my life into them in ways that is pleasing to You.
2 years ago You asked me to trust You, and though it has been difficult at times I choose to continue honoring my agreement to trust You. Though I may not understand or see clearly I want to trust You because during one of the greatest storms of my life You asked me to. Since then You have proven trustworthy, completely trustworthy! You never leave me nor forsake me.
So as I deal with feeling unsure about your will for my life, and as I struggle with the brokenness of my heart I come to You, Father. I know that Your Son Jesus is the only One who can give me peace, hope, and direction. I know that only He can heal, strengthen, and bring fulfillment in life. I ask without doubting, in faith to You for You are loving, and good. I know that at the cross, He died so that I can have life, life to the fullest. No, that doesn’t mean perfection on this earth, but it means that I can live a life that brings glory to You.
I look forward to what comes next, whatever, that maybe. I pray that you will bless me to teach others about You, Your Son Jesus, and Your beautiful Word.
Love your son,
“Because he has loved Me, therefore I will deliver him; I will set him securely on high, because he has known My name. “He will call upon Me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble ; I will rescue him and honor him. “With a long life I will satisfy him And let him see My salvation.”